Its strange how we can talk for hours about general stuff and sometimes our-self, but when it comes to writing it down its alot harder than we thought.I am of youth currently working as a waitress, which for me i love, working with different people everyday,doing something different. Being around people is my idea of heaven, even its it serving them, performing for them or just being around them, i strive to please.
I still live with my mum and feel like i will forever, there's no mistake in saying i have it easy.My friends are supportive through auditions to real life situations.People tell me time and time again get a real job, a full time job. A full time job? a real job? what does this even mean? to be unhappy everyday? to dread waking up?to do the same day in day out?No i may be a penny-less singer /actress but i am happy.i refuse to wade myself into being a robot! let me perform!
My career started in marks and spencers age 2, walking through the sweet lane i started singing `don't cry for my Argentina `from Evita, how a 2 year old could sing that, off all songs i do not know. Then there was bedtime ,every night id switch my Walkman on and listen to Celine Dion over and over again,pretending i was her on stage with my microphone. Cher was a massive part of my childhood to, she helped me reach a note so low even now i am amazed when watching the videos to how i got so low. I then went on through school silent until the very last day in Junior school i sung `how do i live` the whole place was filled with tears.
Then onto senior school i was silent through all the bullying my confidence hit rock bottom but i started drama lessons and the people in there were loud and out there, after a year of acting i started to become who i am today. The confidence that grew within me was mind blowing, i started getting the main roles , my grades were rising.The only thing i carried with me through my childhood, started to dart out of the picture, while i was performing as an actress i complete isolated my singing and went onto college to studying acting.
I learnt things , meet people that for me have shown me exactly why i should be a performer, i got great roles in college but the proudest part i auditioned for was our final production we did `three-penny opera` by Bertolt Brecht, i got the part of Polly, i worked myself to the ground perfecting her character development and singing. I finally had a chance to sing in-front of a large scaled audience, it was the greatest feeling. Being on the stage feeling the lights upon my face, the music echoing about the place, i feel in-love with performing, whether it be acting or singing i knew i would not be me if i was to enter into robot mode. So here i am asking for guidance, asking for help, where do i go? where can i start my journey? A life line?anything? i just want a chance to show people.